NgYangCe.18.

was kidda late for e performance today
reached onli 15mins before the whole show starts
think i ought to prepare myself earlier next time
boohoo

first chinese new year sux
was out of pitch again
but my solo was better then last week
at least i feel so
lesser pitching prob for that
but there is still
of course room for improvement
as for sheryl
she was really good
think she is very stable
at least she is free from pitching prob

the crowd was kidda dead
but the rest commented that they were more obedient then last week
cause upon asking them to clap and applause
many followed without hesitance
and i manage to gave put or the pamphlets and flayers

we went back to the same bar for lunch
while sheryl, together with Herssong rushed down to Jurong Point for e singing competition
hee.
i am very tempted to join actually
but i wasnt really informed about the comp
Eric would want to join too if we were told about it
Thinks Sheryl is the winner for sure
ha.
cause i really think her performance is kidda stable
well there's good and bad
but more of the good then bad.

my duet with Sheryl was great
WeiQian got to sing
and i think the idea of interacting with kids is really brillient
the kids looks really cute
and of course
is a bonus to the whole show i guess
then WeiQian sang with Bernia!
woo.
Bernia.
she didn't do her fan dance though.
haha.

basically,
if you enjoy what ya doing,
who ya doing it with
simply clapping and giving out flyers could be great fun

i am enjoying what i am doing more then before.
thanks.
:)



Yvonne checking her phone
Leonard caught be spying him
ha.



He ignored me
and continue to give me stupid face.
ha.



The meat that the bar serve is nice.
yea.
pasta can't make it though.
boo.



Bernia with HueyYee!
Cute gals



Yee...
Me and Bernia:)
but my fatty arms spoils the whole pic.
and i look so unatural.
ew



Yea
MeiWei
She came but left before we had lunch.
and Zen joked that we can't do without her, our manager
:)



Me and our female Host
Yvonne!
she wearing a butterfly like top
and when the win blows her sleeves up
she really looks like butterfly maiden
:)
my fatty arms again...
my arms:(



Leonard and Me
woo. i like his new hair color
not that obvious here
but the green highlight looks cool!



Yvonne&Leonard
our Host
and after one week
their hosting becoming more and more natural



Woo.
the big three
they are really good friends.




Me and HueyYee
Sweet gal
she dress very smartly today
:)
Fan of taylorSwift too!!!



Me and Sheryl
Her eyes are so damn big
as compared to mine
ha



Ew.
Herssong spying behind us
kidda scary if ya keep staring into this pic.


after show,
i traveled to Yishun
Queenie's house for CNY dance performance
phew
recalling was easy
lucky

had fried rice for dinner
anything with chili is nice
haha

reached home at about 2315pm
tried the clothes i bought with mum and sis
then..
dunno what happen
quarreled and cried again..
not going into the details
...
until today then i know
crying is an offense
and to them...
it is a sign of weakness
especially over things like that...
...
matters always worsen when parents interfere
and they love to console me for no reasons
do i seem like e better person to talk to
but instead of consoling
what you all telling me are words that pierced right through my heart
you nv knew that i can be that sensitive
and you always ask me to reflect
but what about yourself?
...
i am a bad sis
i know
but i am also hoping for a better sis
...
i hate quarrels
no one know the meaning behind those tears
i dun want to be rude
but i become defensive when people starts provoking me
and tears is the results of the struggle i fought with my emotions
somehow my depression is worsen
i can feel it
breathless
headpain
faster heartbeat
i am losing control of it
no one cares
no one believes
no one understands
...
you ought to learn your manners and show more respect to people
you said you love to smile
but please do so at home too
and next time before you give a rude reaction
please consider how other may feel about it
will you dao your friends when they say they are fat?
will you exclaimed when your friends make a small mistake or appear to be ignorant over something?
will you walk away and fold your arms in front of your friends when you are unhappy?
will you stand up for your friends when they are treated with unfairness?
will you stand up for me?
no you won't
the onli time you did was when daddy slapped me...
but do you know that they listen to you more then me...
and that one thing is already unfair
...
but you always make me sad
even when i voice my discontentment here no one cares
that's what she told her friends
do you think i care
and i can still remember the way she say it...
as if i have been a fool
wasted my time brooding over such small stuff
but if you are not who i love
then i wouldn't have felt this way...
...
and they dun understands
that i hate quarrels